I do want to thank Jason, and everyone at the Monastery again for welcoming me with such openness. I’m still amazed that I was granted this opportunity to see shining types of the teachings of A Course in Miracles, and for the first time in an extended while, I don’t feel alone.
Part of me wanted to keep longer, but beneath that desire was the idea that I will be doing so for the wrong reason; as an easy way to avoid my problems. a course in miracles The stronger feeling was, and is, that my travels will continue.
Before I left, Jason asked if I’d had any insights. What I’m about to generally share was not yet clear in those days; only on the drive away achieved it coalesce.
That morning, several lines from a Vance Joy song kept running through my head, “I never must have told you, never must have allow you to see inside. Don’t want it troubling the mind, won’t you allow it to be?” This confused me as I could not consider whatever I’d stated that I felt regret for.
Eventually, the phrase, “don’t want it troubling your mind” stood out. This reminded me that the most prominent fear I’d in arriving at the Monastery was that I would somehow interfere with its residents’reassurance, by just my presence alone. This belief that I could negatively affect other people’s state of mind has been with me for several years, and has colored lots of my past experiences and relationships.
This fear left my awareness immediately after I arrived. On the drive away it rose again, but I remembered David saying in one of his true videos that minds cannot attack. I cried and laughed, and now feel like the belief is being (has been?) released.
You can find other issues that happened that felt important, but I can’t consider them right now.